Maybe

Maybe

To cover my shyness

Crippling, and self-loathing,

I reinvented myself as

A misanthropist.

Maybe.


Maybe

I branded myself

A loner,

As an excuse to

Hide being lonely.

Maybe.


Maybe

I have seemed

Disinterested,

Because showing otherwise

Means exposing myself,

My feelings.

Maybe.


So why now,

Do I do the right thing,

When it is so very hard,

So complex,

So worrying,

When lonely

Misanthropic

Disinterest

Would be so much

Easier.


Maybe...